And the Artist Is Born

Speaker Ksenia Golubovich

Writer, literary critic, translator,
PhD in Literature Studies

Part 1. Childhood as a search for lost time and the self

"Mirror," Andrei Tarkovsky

Tarkovsky’s Mirror is a film-essay, a hybrid of fiction and documentary. It has no plot in the usual sense; instead, it immerses us in the director’s consciousness, a stream of memories, thoughts, dreams, and associations. Personal biography is interwoven with the history of the country: childhood, the father’s departure, the war, the repressions.

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Part 2. Childhood as a world of imagination, fear and magic

"Fanny and Alexander," Ingmar Bergman

This is Ingmar Bergman’s last major film and, in essence, his artistic testament. It is a story about childhood, but in fact it is about the birth of an artist and about inner healing.

The world of this film is made up of three distinct spaces. The world of the Ekdahl family is warm and theatrical, full of red curtains, celebrations and illusions. The world of Bishop Vergérus is cold and ascetic, a space of discipline, fear and repression. The world of Mr. Jacobi is a strange in-between space, an antique shop that is, on the one hand, a realm of magic and theatre and, on the other, entwined with horror and loneliness. It is through Jacobi’s world that the children are rescued, but it is also here that Alexander comes into contact with mystery and with his own dark power.

Fanny returns to the safe, theatrical world of the Ekdahl family. Alexander does not. He remains with the evil he has lived through, with the mystery, and with the ghosts. He is like Hamlet: after encountering the ghost, one can never be the same again. And so the artist (Bergman) is born, along with his own art: not theatre but cinema, where he tells a story of desires, sins, and passions. It is no accident that this film is his last. It is a film of confession and atonement. With it, Bergman leaves cinema and moves into “television,” which itself (a box with a curtain) recalls the puppet theatres of his childhood. The reconciliation has taken place.

Part 3. Childhood as a world of memories, fantasies and desires

“Amarcord”, Federico Fellini

What if childhood is not something we remember, but something we never truly leave behind?

Unlike Bergman and Tarkovsky, who revisit childhood in search of meaning of their adult life, Fellini transforms memory into a dazzling world of sensations, fantasies and desires. In Amarcord, the past is not reconstructed, it is relived. What matters is not what happened, but how it felt.

For Fellini, memory is never simply a record of the past. It is an act of imagination, and cinema becomes the place where memory, fantasy and desire are inseparable.

The film unfolds as a kaleidoscope of eccentric characters, absurd encounters and adolescent fantasies. At its heart is Eros – the awakening of desire, a force that never quite disappears, even as we grow older. Fellini’s childhood is no lost paradise of innocence. It is a world charged with sensuality, curiosity and the irresistible excitement of discovering life. Yet beneath the exuberance lies something darker. Desire encounters mortality, embodied in the idealised figure of the mother, while the great wind sweeping through the film’s final scenes seems to carry away an entire world on the eve of the Second World War.

Is Amarcord a portrait of childhood, or a fantasy created by an adult who cannot let it go?

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